And they wonder why they get a bad wrap!

I had pretty much given up on the whole dating scene but apparently last weekend I got the urge to text message several random men in my phone. I got texting a guy I met only once last spring. His mom is in my sorority’s alumnae club here in Nashville and he actually dated someone I went to college with for 3 years. His dad owns his own company and this guy plans on following his father’s footsteps and taking on the family legacy. On top of it all, this guy was really cute, preppy yet country, and tall. You know I love the tall ones! Haha It all just seemed like a lot of pluses and I was willing to give him a second chance even though the first and last time we met turned out SO horribly. So this week we talked on the phone for hours, he apologized for how things ended last spring, we texted every day at work, and agreed we were going to meet up last night. I was really excited. I was like really when you stop trying, maybe it does all work out.

But on the phone Wednesday night when we were planning what we were going to do, things got weird. Before we got off he basically said why don’t we just hang out in my truck…. We can meet at McDonalds or something. I thought surely this guy wasn’t being serious and I said I would text time tomorrow with what I think we should do. I was already apprehensive about seeing him again just for the sheer fact the first time we met ended with me crying and screaming so I felt he had a lot to prove to me, but I figured he was surely just kidding about the “truck hangout” and so end of night, I was still excited. OHHH how wrong was I! So here is the texting convo we had yesterday afternoon.

Me: How about flying saucer at 730?

Him: I thought we were just meeting and talking in my truck.

Me: Sorry I really don’t feel comfortable with that

Him: Why?

Me: I deserve to be treated like a lady, and taken to a respectable place as opposed to hanging out in your car.

Him: I don’t do dating.

Me: Well I guess we are looking for different things then.

Him: I guess

Me: So I leave the decision up to u. Either we meet up in public or I guess we can go in our separate ways. Hope you can respect that.

Him: Babe that’s a date. I don’t do that. I’m sorry. You are a great girl though.

Me: Okay if that’s your call.

Him: Alright

HAHAHAHAH SERIOUSLY!? Did that really just happen to me?

Peep show!

I can’t seem to do anything flawlessly…..

I had my first ever graduate school interview today with the dean of the business program at the school I am applying. The interview went great. I was told at least three times that I should have nothing to worry about due to my excellent college background, my gmat scores, ect. He really seemed to like me. I left feeling pumped! Someone in this world likes me enough to choose me (even if it is a school, still doesn’t make it any less romantic! Hehe)

I get back to my desk at work directly after my interview. I take off my suit jacket, typing away at the 100 emails that came in during my absence, I look down….. MY FLY IS WIDE OPEN! I could unfortunately see my bright blue polka dotted undergarment starring at me. ARE WE KIDDING!? I knew I hadn’t gone to the restroom since lunch and there was no doubt that the dean of this school most likely got a peep show during my interview. HOW MORTIFYING! I just keep telling myself, maybe he didn't see anything... please don't let him have seen anything. Why do I keep having these undergarment malfunctions?! haha

Anyways, I always share my embarrassing stories. Hope you got a good laugh, and hopefully that wont have an affect on whether or not I get accepted. Keepin my fingers crossed! :o)

Music to my ears!

One of the things I enjoy the most in life is music. I always have music playing at work, in my car, my computer at home (and singing aloud, sorry folks!)…. I pretty much always surround myself with music. Unfortunately, I was not blessed with the talent of being a singer or musician. Yes, I can carry a tune and play the piano (kinda), but nothing that reflects the amount of singing or piano lessons I took throughout my childhood. Luckily, I think that aspect of my childhood really opened me to deep respect and envy for the people that do have those skills. Anyways, I consider myself to kind of have a lyrical soul. That mixed with my love for music equals for a great taste in music…. Well in my opinion. Haha The past 2 weeks I have gone to 3 concerts (thank you music city) that have been GREAT!

Concert 1- Safety Suit: One of my favorite Nashville based bands that have been signed. It is a boy band that can seriously rock out! They have one of the best live performances in terms of quality of music and energy. The group is a good group of Christian dudes, that keep things clean, have lyrics that reach the crowd and clearly love their job of entertaining. If you haven’t heard their music, check it out or even better go to one of their shows!

Concert 2- John Mayer: I guess there is no way that JM’s concert could be bad. Chill atmosphere, beautiful songs, extremely lyrical soul, and he is just plain out sick when it comes to playing guitar. It was my first JM concert and I was not let down.

Concert 3- Brandi Carlile: A voice like I have never heard before in my life: So different yet SO amazing. She makes her country/folk sound sound so easy, and honestly I think she was even better live than she is on her album if that is possible. Her music is just so raw, heart felt, deep, and emotional and pulls on the heart strings of everyone in the audience. I left feeling inspired and passionate. Still do!

I love that Nashville has a great music scene. Always on the look out for new artists and great tunes so pass them along if you have any! Also, there are a couple shows I unfortunately wasn’t able to snag tickets for: David Grey and Amos Lee…. both coming soon. If you know anyone with an extra tickets PLEASE let me know!

Drowning....

My life has been so busy lately it seems like I don’t have the opportunity to live my life much anymore, much less post on here.
At first it was all fun.
If you didn’t know I have been on the house hunt since the beginning of December. Since I am doing this all on my own, single, on a 24 year olds salary this search has been hard. My budget is small, and my taste is big. It has been, probably one of the biggest emotional roller coasters of my life. I have looked at around 30 homes at this point. The ones I like someone puts an offer down before I even have the opportunity to and the worst part was when I finally felt I found the right place, they rejected my offer. Now we are starting all over…. Sigh. Tear. But I know it will be worth it when I find a good place.

Then when it comes to boys… I think I officially dated myself out. At first I loved meeting new people, learning what I like and dislike in a man but turns out maybe my screening process is a bit too harsh because none of them made the cut. I have wasted what seems like the greater part of all my free time in January and beginning of February with people I will never see and/or speak to again when I could be doing something useful with my time. I honestly think my biggest issue is I want to date someone that could be my best friend and these boys haven’t really connected with me on all the levels I need.… Gotta keep the faith, just takes 1.  One day my life will be like “My Best Friend” by Tim Mcgraw. (one of my faves, as you may note by my playlist lol)

I am really excited about grad school but in the process of doing the above I have fallen away from the application process. For the school I want to attend I am completely finished applying except for an essay I have to write. I have been telling myself for two month to write it. It still isn’t done. I am just disappointed in myself for procrastinating. I will do it tonight ;o)

I more than willingly volunteered to be my sorority’s alum club treasurer when I moved to Nashville. Little did I know it was a 2 year commitment and duty of a part time job. Trying to keep all that organized just for myself, meetings, tons of emails, reimbursements getting mailed to me constantly, 50 check deposits…. The count down to the end began after day 1… we are t-minus 5 months to go!

Then on top of that I have been dealing with my wrecked car. Tons of phone calls and frustration later, I finally have my estimate, I have a follow up doctor’s appointment later today, I will be getting my car fixed on Monday but honestly this whole mess just seems like something else sucking the life out of me.

The sad part is none of those things listed above deserve the high priority I have made them in my life recently. I feel like I have neglected my friends, I haven’t called my sister in forever, work has suffered due to my lack of ability to focus, and in the process I have neglecting myself as well. I feel overwhelmed. Usually when you are so busy you actually feel like you accomplish something. Me on the other hand, feel like I am treading water. And while I know if feels like that now, I know one day I will look back and be proud of myself.

Anyways, just had to vent. I know for every low there is a high. I just keep telling myself-
“God Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.”

Whoa-Red!

Yep... got red highlights and I am officially gingeresque! Gotta let my fiery side show on the occasion. Within the last year I was blonde, burnette, now red. Why can't I just pick one and stick with it? haha I must say red is probably my least favorite but it has been an interesting experience so far. It's fading fast so I better enjoy it while I can.

Car Wreck

So I am 24 and finally had my first wreck. I was always concerned that since I had never been involved in an accident that when I did have one it was going to horrible but luckily I was wrong. It’s kind of ironic that Nashville just had its equivalent of a blizzard and I drove my little 4 banger Honda around during all of it (unfortunately I had to come into work) and was just fine. No accidents, nothing. So finally when the conditions finally got back to normal, I get in a wreck. Go figure. Anyways, it was in rush hour traffic a silly driver pulled out right in front of me. I side t-boned his car, his car did a 360 and then he hit me in the rear. I was going less than 30 mph and the airbags didn’t go off. Luckily no one was hurt (besides a bump on my knee) except our poor cars. The man was very apologetic, said he was in a hurry…. But what I didn’t realize is having the wreck almost seems to be the easy part when there are no injuries. Getting all this insurance biz naz figured out just makes me frustrated.

Everyone be careful out there. Not getting involved in an accident has nothing to do with how good of a driver you are. There are lots of crazies out there!

The missing post

As I was searching through my computer to find a document that seems to have magically disappeared to no man's land I came accross an unsaved recovered document, labeled document 1. I thought Oh yes, i found my missing file! But no. What I found was the below writing that A) I don't really remember writing or B) Why I wr0te it. (Pre blog days) Anyways, I found it kind of interesting and I thought I would share... It may be over a year late in posting but better late than never right?
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So its official... 2008 is almost over. Tonight I was driving home in the snow, my Christmas music playing faintly in the background, and I caught myself as I do many times behind the wheel in deep thought. Tonight I just kept thinking about how I can't believe it is already practically Christmas and the fact that 2009 is literally days away. It got me thinking…what did I accomplish or more less what have I learned this year about the true meaning of "me"?
1) First thing that came to mind (since I was actually driving home from traffic school and all) was, I think over the past year I have become a much more responsible driver. Yes, it may have taken 3 speeding tickets and 16 hours of defensive driving school to get me here but an accomplishment for me none the less.
2) Life with a pet makes life more complete. I lived a whole year in Nashville and only now am I realizing what I was missing out on by not having a pet. Gellar (the cat), always seem to love you (minus the numerous times he has accidents on your bed, floor, bath mat, ect LOL), is so excited to see you when you get home, he is an amazing cuddlier, never makes you cry, and for some reason even though a cat can't talk or hug can always make me feel better.
3) Over the past year, or maybe just in the last 6 months, I have rejuvenated my hopes on love. Most of you know I have had some cynicism on the whole love arena for a few years now. But this year, not only have I seen several people fall in love right in front of me but I got to see my sister get married. I looked at her and saw the happiness in her and Nick’s eyes and at that moment I knew that true love does really exist and happiness comes with sharing your life and experiences with someone. I realize statistically that relationships are a coin toss …. Some last, some don’t. But there is just something so hopelessly romantic about letting yourself fall someone and promising to commit to them. And I am just thankful that I have that faith back in my life because I can’t wait for that to be me one day. No, I didn’t fall in love this year, and I am glad. Because the relationships I had this past year all taught me a lot about what I want, what I need, and what I deserve … and I don’t plan on accepting anything else anymore. :o)
4) This year I realized how much my friends and family truly mean to me. Going to the Grand Canyon with my parents, having a lake house party with my sister and all our friends, road trips, bridal showers, holidays, late nights out on the town, dressing up and being silly, girls night… all things that have been a huge contribution to my happiness this past year. For all of you reading this right now, I want you to know I love you very much. Thank you for being here for me, for calling me when I needed to talk, for yelling at me when I wouldn’t listen, for laughing at my amazing humor LOL, for being a shoulder to cry on… for everything. You all are the world to me and I can’t imagine my life without you! (Ps. I can’t wait to make more memories with all of you next year. )
5) I have a horrible shopping addiction. That is something I need to work on!
6) I learned my true love of music this past year. While I have always considered myself to have a lyrical soul… Living in music city and having friends that have fed that passion has opened many new musicians genre’s, and have given me a better outlet for many of my thoughts and emotions. Music has really served as a form of therapy for me the past year.
7) That happiness at work is directly correlated with your absolute happiness. Your job takes up the majority of your life. If you don’t enjoy it that means you pretty much are unhappy most of the time. Think about that one!
Gosh, there is so much I learned this year I can’t even begin to fathom how long and how boring this could get if I attempted it. I have been typing at this too long, and the wisdom I gather from myself behind the wheel of my car has faded and that is all I have for tonight. Therefore I will come to conclusion and wish you all a very Merry Christmas and an amazing 2009!

Amber alert out for Christy

So as mentioned in previous posts I have been on a dating frenzy. Usually I am very smart about this. I am meeting boys I barely know and let’s be honest…. They could be killers, rapists, psychos. So I usually tell my closest friends the boy’s name, where we are going, what the agenda is. Sometimes I even send an update mid-way through just to keep them posted.

Anyways last night, very spur of the moment, I took up a guy up on his invitation to have drinks. My roommates weren’t home when I left so I just went on my business and headed out for drinks. It didn’t cross my mind that they would be worried when they got home and realized I wasn’t there and had no idea where I was.

Initial problem was boy and I didn’t even meet for drinks until 9 pm, so the date ended quite late. Plus, I have a very good track record of keeping people posted on my whereabouts (thank you I phone)- so it was unlike me to not tell anyone. I was just asking for someone to freak. I love my friends so much for caring so much. When not returning home by 11 and not answering the phone (I honestly didn’t hear it ringing in my purse) my loving roommates called friends, hospitals, jails, the bowling alley (I had bowling league after work yesterday) and my family to try to locate me just in case something bad had happened to me.

I could not ask for better friends. I can’t explain how good it makes you feel when you know someone cares so much, even if I had to scare them to death in the process. Thanks ya’ll! Love you lots and just know if I pull a stunt like this again, I’m not crying wolf. I learned my lesson.

Fads....

So there are just some things in life you promise yourself you wont do just because everyone else does. Certain fads or peer pressure you tell yourself you wont succumb too. I am sure 100 different things just popped in your mind and about 98% of them you have probably caved in to or at least thought about it. Now most times I like to be pretty trendy and go with the flow but there are times I stand up for my right to be individual. And the sad part is, I often fail.

Failed attempts go as follows:

#1) Ugs.... Yes I own Ug-esque shoes and I still think they are ugly (I refer to them as my fuglies) but I caved. I got them, I love them, and I wear them. I bow my head in shame.

#2)Jersey Shore.... The show that is so bad I can't help but watch. I even sometimes quote the show, bring it up in random conversations and I think to myself.... Christy you should be embarrassed! haha It is quite "the situation". haha

#3) John Mayer.... I refused to listen to him in college, to go to any of his concerts, or to join his whole group of teen crazed groupies. I told everyone, "nope I never fell for the John Mayer band wagon." Look at me know. I have his last three Cd's on my ipod, a Pandora station dedicated just to him and I have concert tickets to his Nashville show in a few weeks. Yes, you can call me a hypocrite.

#4) Skinny Jeans.... I have always been the one to say chubby people aren't meant to wear anything labeled skinny, especially skinny jeans. I swore to myself when flare legged jeans became popular in the 90's that I would NEVER again go back to straight leg look because they generally look horrible on everyone (unless they are a stick figure) But for some reason I am wearing a pair of skinny jeans right now. I tell myself, it's not how the jeans look, it is how you feel in them. That makes it so much better doesn't it. haha

#5) The Crack Berry or the IPhone... Now I have blogged about my iPhone before. I swore to myself I wouldn't be one of those other people addicted to their phone. The one sitting their car, in a waiting room, a restaurant, or a bar with their eyes glued to their hand held device. But once again, I have become just like everyone else... an addict.

#6) Avatar... I don't like sci fi, I am not into war movies, and not the biggest fan of animated movies so why would I ever want to see this movie. I didn't. But once I heard that IMAX made it sooo cool and it was totally worth the 15 bucks to see it, I was the one asking my friends to go see this movie. I went, I saw, I conquered.... Just like everyone else. This weekend will put Avatar as the best selling movie of all times. (even over Titanic, which is crazy since I alone went and saw Titanic 3 times in the theater! haha)

Now there are still things like walking around with my blue tooth in my ear, dropping the word GD, getting eyeliner tattooed on, ect... those things are still not going to happen (least I don't think) but it just cracks me up how peer pressure changes our opinions or makes us breakdown to the point we find something acceptable. Now I know I only listed silly things like fashion, gadgets and entertainment (those things are just more fun to write about haha) but those are just "for examples". Peer pressure affects so much more; it affects our social interactions, politics, beliefs and judgements and pretty much every facet of your life.

I challenge you to try be you, don't settle for pleasing other people's opinions, and stay true to who you are in every way shape and form.

"Be yourself; everyone is already taken." ~ Oscar Wilde

men and women

Can men and women truly be friends? This just happens to be one of those question that unforunatley has no definitive answer. Everyone has their own opinion, thoughts, and rules to this question but honeslty it probably just depends on the situation, the people and how close of a relationship but I think after a certain point it all boils down to: No.

One of my favorite movies of all times captures the essence of this question better than I could possibly try to. If you haven't seen the 80's classic, When Harry Met Sally, go to blockbuster and make it happen. A movie both men and women can both appreciate.