So I kinda met a new guy! Kinda as in I did. haha One of my really good guy pals had some friends from home come into town last weekend. With 8 guys and 3 girls hanging out, of coarse your odds get pretty good. But the unfortunate part is he lives in Birmingham. I lived in Birmingham for 4 years and I love it there and we have that in common but the whole lets be long distance friends confuses me but anyways... ONLY happy thoughts today!
He found my number on facebook Monday, and since then we have texted every day and had had 2 really long phone calls (2 hours, and then last night for 2 hrs 40 minutes!) I feel like i am in high school again. I just love crushes. It's so new and fresh. No fights, issues or baggage yet to taint it. It's amazing how getting someone's attention and having someone that actually wants to talk and listen to you puts a smile on your face.
While I don't know where this is going to go... I realize that is the beauty of life. You never know what cards you will draw for the day!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Kick Ball
Say Hello to the Corner Publicans! (We are sponsored by The Corner Pub... Hence our catchy team name. LOL) I offiically now play kick ball every with the Nashville Sports League.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Faith
What makes you wake up in the morning and face the day? No one has a perfect life. Everyone has had a day when they have cried themselves to sleep, prayed so hard they forgot what they were praying for, or asked "what if?" over and over until every possible scenario of their life has played through their minds. But at the end of all that over-analyzing there is one statement that leads to some sort of comfort. "Everything happens for a reason." Right?....
The hard part to grasp about this idea is that we have no proof that this is true. It is an idea soley based on 100% faith and nothing else. Faith isn't something you can learn through other people's experiences or study and get tested on. Today we live in a world where there are text books on how to do or think just about anything. But faith is something we have to learn and teach ourselves.
What is faith??
* A strong belief in a super natural power or powers that control the human destiny
*Complete confidence in a person or plan
*Loyalty or allegiance to a cause or a person
I have no scientific evidence that fate exists. That people go through different issues, whether happy or sad, to develop themselves into the person they are supposed to become. It's the childlike hope and faith that everything happens for a reason that gets you back up and trying to figure out why something happened because deep down you are confident there is a reason. God will never challenge you with something you can't overcome. And even if our lives are truly just a case of cause and affect, we still HAVE to believe deep down somewhere that there is a reason for the events of our lives or how do we get past the bad things that happen to us?
When I look back on my life there are lots of instances when the thought "everything happens for a reason" was the only sound thought in my head. One specific time was the first time I had my heart broken. I thought I had my life planned out. I was a junior in college and was in love with my high school sweetheart. A few weeks short of 5 years together the phone rings and all I got was "I cant' do this anymore". My heart sank, I couldn't breath, and my eyes filled with tears. I hadn't lived my life without him. I didn't know how to function. Someone I talked to everyday, confided my deepest secrets to, my best friend was gone. It was like he died. From that phone call on I never talked to him, I never saw him and it was literally as if a piece of my heart disappeared. Or what about the time I broke my knee getting out of bed, yes getting out of bed, my senior year in college. No accident or sports involved. I was stepping out of bed like i do every single day of my life.... All I got was my knees are prone for displacement. But WHY? There has to be a reason, a plan, a method to all this madness.
This rule doesn't just apply for issues in the love department or bad things. But unfortuaately the bad things - sickness, cancer,car wrecks, getting picked on- these instances tend to overshadow all the amazing things that happen in your life. You get an amazing job offer, you randomly meet someone that turns into new best friend, having a baby, getting married, winning the lottery... There are tons more happy things that happen in life than bad... we just have to open our eyes to all the amazing things that are in the works around us.
I look back now and see how much I have grown from all those opportunities, mistakes, accidents, and experiences. My life is 100% different right now than it would have been if my life had continued with my high school boyfriend. My eyes have been opened to a whole new world of handicapped hardships and personal empathy to those that stuggle with phsycial issues due to my knee and my life has been formed by all the many amazing family, friends, and coworkers I have had. Living through happy times or affliction and dealing with all the emotions involved with every life experience has taught me to find out who I truly am as a person, made me aspire to follow my dreams, taught me to be independent and has ultimiately made me the woman I am today.
No one can say it better than Marilyn Monroe's quote:
"I believe things happen for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually start to trust no one but yourself, & sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." ~ Marilyn Monroe
The hard part to grasp about this idea is that we have no proof that this is true. It is an idea soley based on 100% faith and nothing else. Faith isn't something you can learn through other people's experiences or study and get tested on. Today we live in a world where there are text books on how to do or think just about anything. But faith is something we have to learn and teach ourselves.
What is faith??
* A strong belief in a super natural power or powers that control the human destiny
*Complete confidence in a person or plan
*Loyalty or allegiance to a cause or a person
I have no scientific evidence that fate exists. That people go through different issues, whether happy or sad, to develop themselves into the person they are supposed to become. It's the childlike hope and faith that everything happens for a reason that gets you back up and trying to figure out why something happened because deep down you are confident there is a reason. God will never challenge you with something you can't overcome. And even if our lives are truly just a case of cause and affect, we still HAVE to believe deep down somewhere that there is a reason for the events of our lives or how do we get past the bad things that happen to us?
When I look back on my life there are lots of instances when the thought "everything happens for a reason" was the only sound thought in my head. One specific time was the first time I had my heart broken. I thought I had my life planned out. I was a junior in college and was in love with my high school sweetheart. A few weeks short of 5 years together the phone rings and all I got was "I cant' do this anymore". My heart sank, I couldn't breath, and my eyes filled with tears. I hadn't lived my life without him. I didn't know how to function. Someone I talked to everyday, confided my deepest secrets to, my best friend was gone. It was like he died. From that phone call on I never talked to him, I never saw him and it was literally as if a piece of my heart disappeared. Or what about the time I broke my knee getting out of bed, yes getting out of bed, my senior year in college. No accident or sports involved. I was stepping out of bed like i do every single day of my life.... All I got was my knees are prone for displacement. But WHY? There has to be a reason, a plan, a method to all this madness.
This rule doesn't just apply for issues in the love department or bad things. But unfortuaately the bad things - sickness, cancer,car wrecks, getting picked on- these instances tend to overshadow all the amazing things that happen in your life. You get an amazing job offer, you randomly meet someone that turns into new best friend, having a baby, getting married, winning the lottery... There are tons more happy things that happen in life than bad... we just have to open our eyes to all the amazing things that are in the works around us.
I look back now and see how much I have grown from all those opportunities, mistakes, accidents, and experiences. My life is 100% different right now than it would have been if my life had continued with my high school boyfriend. My eyes have been opened to a whole new world of handicapped hardships and personal empathy to those that stuggle with phsycial issues due to my knee and my life has been formed by all the many amazing family, friends, and coworkers I have had. Living through happy times or affliction and dealing with all the emotions involved with every life experience has taught me to find out who I truly am as a person, made me aspire to follow my dreams, taught me to be independent and has ultimiately made me the woman I am today.
No one can say it better than Marilyn Monroe's quote:
"I believe things happen for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually start to trust no one but yourself, & sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." ~ Marilyn Monroe
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Reading Between the Wines
Once a month I meet with a group of girls for a book club. It's called Reading Between The Wines and entails congregating around food, several bottles of wine and banter about the book of the month (or actually girl talk, gossip, and stories... haha)
This month our book was Step On A Crack by James Patterson.
It was my first James Patterson experience and the beginning of a new character series for the author- Michael Bennett. I give James a thumbs up (not two, but definitely one). I loved his short chapters, the variation of characters point of view of the same situation, and its page turning qualities. While I wasn't compelled to sit and read the book in one sitting, I most certainly enjoyed every chance I got to sit and read. Most of the time I love a good love story intermingled into the plot line but this one was quite the opposite. Luckily Patterson sets up future books in the series to have a potential romantic twist with this emotional main character. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. Now just have to find time to read it!!!
This month our book was Step On A Crack by James Patterson.
It was my first James Patterson experience and the beginning of a new character series for the author- Michael Bennett. I give James a thumbs up (not two, but definitely one). I loved his short chapters, the variation of characters point of view of the same situation, and its page turning qualities. While I wasn't compelled to sit and read the book in one sitting, I most certainly enjoyed every chance I got to sit and read. Most of the time I love a good love story intermingled into the plot line but this one was quite the opposite. Luckily Patterson sets up future books in the series to have a potential romantic twist with this emotional main character. I am looking forward to the next book in the series. Now just have to find time to read it!!! Next months club book is still TBD, but it's looking like the host is going to pick a female biography. Non-fiction always proves to be interesting.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Right Brain
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So last week I decided to feed my artistic soul a little bit and take an acrylic painting class. The class was called creatively fit. Most people in the class were total beginners and I just went along with it even though I was a studio art minor in college. I didn't want to feel any stress or pressure since A)I had been away from painting for over 2 years and B)I have never really painted with acyclic. But the class brought me back to painting and drawing one lectures I had 4 years ago... Right brain/left brain yada yada.... Things i haven't thought about since I entered the work force.
Now those of you who are unfamiliar with the differences between left brain right brain, I'll give you a little reader's digest version of what I am talking about.
Left-brain scholastic subjects focus on logical thinking, analysis, and accuracy. Right-brained subjects, on the other hand, focus on aesthetics, feeling, and creativity.
While I am sure this is talked about in psychology or what not, the only times I have ever really heard these ideas and/or differences in peoples way of thinking is in art classes. Maybe artists were saying something that needed to be broad casted.....
Sitting in that lecture hearing the artist tell us about these elementary facts about how the brain works and for some reason it all made so much more sense to me this time around. Maybe it was because now I wasn't immersed in a liberal art college surrounded by a huge eclectic group of students and I was fully intertwined with the "business world". I work in a logistics type position that is dominated by male baby boomers. I rolled in at 21, dressed to the T in my cutest business looking outfit, highlighted hair, nails painted, and decorated my desk as cute as you can possibly decorate a cubicle. I always have my music playing, add the little smiley faces to my emails, talk way too much about non related work topics, and love color coding and making spreadsheets look a tad bit more aesthetically pleasing. In my head, I always figured I was different because I was this girly associate that was quite a bit younger than the rest of the people on my floor but it hit me when the artist leading the workshop last week, I wasn't just different because I was a woman... I am different because I am right brain dominated.
Now those of you who are unfamiliar with the differences between left brain right brain, I'll give you a little reader's digest version of what I am talking about.
Left-brain scholastic subjects focus on logical thinking, analysis, and accuracy. Right-brained subjects, on the other hand, focus on aesthetics, feeling, and creativity.
While I am sure this is talked about in psychology or what not, the only times I have ever really heard these ideas and/or differences in peoples way of thinking is in art classes. Maybe artists were saying something that needed to be broad casted.....
Sitting in that lecture hearing the artist tell us about these elementary facts about how the brain works and for some reason it all made so much more sense to me this time around. Maybe it was because now I wasn't immersed in a liberal art college surrounded by a huge eclectic group of students and I was fully intertwined with the "business world". I work in a logistics type position that is dominated by male baby boomers. I rolled in at 21, dressed to the T in my cutest business looking outfit, highlighted hair, nails painted, and decorated my desk as cute as you can possibly decorate a cubicle. I always have my music playing, add the little smiley faces to my emails, talk way too much about non related work topics, and love color coding and making spreadsheets look a tad bit more aesthetically pleasing. In my head, I always figured I was different because I was this girly associate that was quite a bit younger than the rest of the people on my floor but it hit me when the artist leading the workshop last week, I wasn't just different because I was a woman... I am different because I am right brain dominated.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Replaceable
Written: June 16th 2008
Things to ponder…Topic of today Replaceable
Have you ever thought about what your life would be like with or without someone in your life. I mean there are those people you can’t ever imagine your life without like your family, or that goofy great cousin that makes all holidays and celebrations bearable but what about those people that aren’t part of your life permanently. You go through life starting out young not knowing any better about who your friends are and slowly weed out the good, bad and ugly as we get older. You slowly get to the point where you know tons of people but only really have a couple close friends. You have those people that were your high school and your college friends but what about those few that slip-in in between. The ones that pass your time. The ones we don’t give a second thought about after they are gone. I guess you could say “out of sight, out of mind”.
We think about these people but we never really put it into reference for ourselves because we want to feel important and admitting that someone is just using you for a temporary fix for loneliness or whatever just hurts the ego a little bit. Okay I know I got you thinking back a little bit. I mean honestly there are tons of them when we sit down and think about it.
What about that guy or girl you dated for three weeks and then gave them lets just be friends talk. Ex-coworkers you used to have lunches with and happy hour after work on days that just really blew. Or those friends you just hung out with--someone to go dancing with, golf buddies or just someone that was like you that needed someone.
But then at one point one of you didn’t need the other and then POOF! Your relationship is terminated for no real good reason. Neither are terribly upset because it is almost like it was understood that the proverbial high you were getting from each other was just a rush, not a permanent fix. Just onto the next victim, the next fix for your needs.
But as in every relationship someone means more to the other. There is always that person that always cares more versus the infamous selfish one. I will admit, I have walked across(not burned) lots of bridges in my day. I have taken lots of people for granted and just think about it as a stepping stone to becoming the ultimate “me”. At that point in time that friend served a vital part in my life and I move on when my situation changed.
Okay, if you have made it this far in my post you may be asking what the heck is the point of this redundant post. Okay so I will spill, let you into the inner working personal issues of what I like to call me. So I met this guy about 5 months ago. We really hit it off, it was just one of those times when you are just lonely and crave the attention of a friend. We were both pretty new to the city we live in and were exactly the fix we needed to put a smile on our faces. Date night had a new meaning again. But it was nothing serious and we both knew that. He said he wouldn’t commit cause he was planning on moving in May or September and he understood if we just wanted to be friends. Well, being the hopeless romantic I am I thought why not just live in the present and see where it leads. Who knows maybe he will change his mind. Maybe I wont just be a girl he met one day back in 2008, maybe I will be that girl that made his 2008…..Plus I didn’t think he was really going to move and I decided to keep him around anyways. Okay 3 months have passed since then, and finally the topic came up….Why haven’t you been dating around? You are too good of a girl to be single. Is it me that is holding you back? I think we should just be friends for a while. Yada yada yada…Then it don’ed on me…I have let someone use me as a passerby. Here I am, I’m that girl, that girl that is gunna crash after the high….it just ran over my brain how I hadn’t affected his life at all. I hadn’t met any of his friends, been to his apartment, I haven’t seen any of his pictures from his fraternity parties or his 10th bday party and he had been fully immersed in my world for almost half year….At that moment in time I realized I was replaceable to this person, no one would know to ask, where is she, what happened with that relationship. I was or I guess am invisible to his world. While he may cherish my friendship to a certain extent, as soon as I move on he will be gone. I will just be that “good” girl he hung out with when he lived in that city. He doesn’t even have a picture of me. I’ll literally just be a memory of a time and place. But its okay because I think even though we are still going to hang out and see what happens I know he will think back and think, “yeah, she was cool” and I guess that will have to be enough because me clinging on isn’t part of the deal of those people you meet that are supposed to be temporary.
But it does leave me wanting more, I just wish I could hear those thoughts people are too scared to say out loud because I believe there is a time when someone becomes a memory and when someone becomes a dent in your soul, a mark on your life forever. How much can you say you contribute to those people you pass off, opposed to the people you move on from? Ponder that!
Things to ponder…Topic of today Replaceable
Have you ever thought about what your life would be like with or without someone in your life. I mean there are those people you can’t ever imagine your life without like your family, or that goofy great cousin that makes all holidays and celebrations bearable but what about those people that aren’t part of your life permanently. You go through life starting out young not knowing any better about who your friends are and slowly weed out the good, bad and ugly as we get older. You slowly get to the point where you know tons of people but only really have a couple close friends. You have those people that were your high school and your college friends but what about those few that slip-in in between. The ones that pass your time. The ones we don’t give a second thought about after they are gone. I guess you could say “out of sight, out of mind”.
We think about these people but we never really put it into reference for ourselves because we want to feel important and admitting that someone is just using you for a temporary fix for loneliness or whatever just hurts the ego a little bit. Okay I know I got you thinking back a little bit. I mean honestly there are tons of them when we sit down and think about it.
What about that guy or girl you dated for three weeks and then gave them lets just be friends talk. Ex-coworkers you used to have lunches with and happy hour after work on days that just really blew. Or those friends you just hung out with--someone to go dancing with, golf buddies or just someone that was like you that needed someone.
But then at one point one of you didn’t need the other and then POOF! Your relationship is terminated for no real good reason. Neither are terribly upset because it is almost like it was understood that the proverbial high you were getting from each other was just a rush, not a permanent fix. Just onto the next victim, the next fix for your needs.
But as in every relationship someone means more to the other. There is always that person that always cares more versus the infamous selfish one. I will admit, I have walked across(not burned) lots of bridges in my day. I have taken lots of people for granted and just think about it as a stepping stone to becoming the ultimate “me”. At that point in time that friend served a vital part in my life and I move on when my situation changed.
Okay, if you have made it this far in my post you may be asking what the heck is the point of this redundant post. Okay so I will spill, let you into the inner working personal issues of what I like to call me. So I met this guy about 5 months ago. We really hit it off, it was just one of those times when you are just lonely and crave the attention of a friend. We were both pretty new to the city we live in and were exactly the fix we needed to put a smile on our faces. Date night had a new meaning again. But it was nothing serious and we both knew that. He said he wouldn’t commit cause he was planning on moving in May or September and he understood if we just wanted to be friends. Well, being the hopeless romantic I am I thought why not just live in the present and see where it leads. Who knows maybe he will change his mind. Maybe I wont just be a girl he met one day back in 2008, maybe I will be that girl that made his 2008…..Plus I didn’t think he was really going to move and I decided to keep him around anyways. Okay 3 months have passed since then, and finally the topic came up….Why haven’t you been dating around? You are too good of a girl to be single. Is it me that is holding you back? I think we should just be friends for a while. Yada yada yada…Then it don’ed on me…I have let someone use me as a passerby. Here I am, I’m that girl, that girl that is gunna crash after the high….it just ran over my brain how I hadn’t affected his life at all. I hadn’t met any of his friends, been to his apartment, I haven’t seen any of his pictures from his fraternity parties or his 10th bday party and he had been fully immersed in my world for almost half year….At that moment in time I realized I was replaceable to this person, no one would know to ask, where is she, what happened with that relationship. I was or I guess am invisible to his world. While he may cherish my friendship to a certain extent, as soon as I move on he will be gone. I will just be that “good” girl he hung out with when he lived in that city. He doesn’t even have a picture of me. I’ll literally just be a memory of a time and place. But its okay because I think even though we are still going to hang out and see what happens I know he will think back and think, “yeah, she was cool” and I guess that will have to be enough because me clinging on isn’t part of the deal of those people you meet that are supposed to be temporary.
But it does leave me wanting more, I just wish I could hear those thoughts people are too scared to say out loud because I believe there is a time when someone becomes a memory and when someone becomes a dent in your soul, a mark on your life forever. How much can you say you contribute to those people you pass off, opposed to the people you move on from? Ponder that!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Growing old
So just an average day and thinking of good songs I want to listen to while I am old at work. Well the song I wanna grow old with you by Adam Sandler from the Wedding singer came to mind. I LOVE that song, always have always will. Anyway in search for that song I found a similar song by Westlife... So sweet. Thought I would share. I may go into cardiac arrest if someone said and or sang this to me. If only! haha
Another day Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know How much it means For you to stay Right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
Things can come and go
I know but Baby I believe Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do I wanna grow old with you
Another day Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know How much it means For you to stay Right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
Things can come and go
I know but Baby I believe Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do I wanna grow old with you
Monday, September 14, 2009
The Truth
For those people that are really close to me, all of you would say I run away from men that actually like me and I am drawn to jerks. I say i want commitment but always chase after these boys I know will A) wont commit B) Will never like me C) Guys that will only consider me friends or D)Only like me when they are drunk. Then i cry and cry when things end exactly like I knew they would. Me sad.
Last night I got home pretty early and decided to finish sunday off being lazy -which chick flicks are always a requirement for lazy sundays. The flick of choice last night was Last Chance Harvey. The movie was mediocre but something the main female character said towards the end of the movie struck a personal note with me.
" i’m not gonna do it because it’ll hurt. sometime or other, there will be… you know, it’s not working, or i need my space, or whatever it is, and it will end, and it will hurt, and i won’t do it. i won’t do it and i won’t…
you see, what i think it is, is… is i think i’m more comfortable with being disappointed. i think i’m angry with you for trying to take that away."
That's it. That's my issue in a nutshell. I am afraid of getting hurt and at this point I am more okay with being disappointed over and over than risk that kind of pain again. Now that I know the problem, the goal is to find a solution!!!
You can't find love if you don't really go looking for it right?
Last night I got home pretty early and decided to finish sunday off being lazy -which chick flicks are always a requirement for lazy sundays. The flick of choice last night was Last Chance Harvey. The movie was mediocre but something the main female character said towards the end of the movie struck a personal note with me.
" i’m not gonna do it because it’ll hurt. sometime or other, there will be… you know, it’s not working, or i need my space, or whatever it is, and it will end, and it will hurt, and i won’t do it. i won’t do it and i won’t…
you see, what i think it is, is… is i think i’m more comfortable with being disappointed. i think i’m angry with you for trying to take that away."
That's it. That's my issue in a nutshell. I am afraid of getting hurt and at this point I am more okay with being disappointed over and over than risk that kind of pain again. Now that I know the problem, the goal is to find a solution!!!
You can't find love if you don't really go looking for it right?
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
3-Day Diet
So every woman has been on a diet. As a matter of fact my life has been a diet. The first real diet I remember going on was my freshman year of highschool. I did the Atkins diet. It worked pretty good, but i mainly blame the fact I grew 3 inches that year, and puberty for all those changes. Then the years of constant counting points came. Off an on again with weight watchers for what is now 9 or 10 years. But I have alwasy been chubby and probably always will be chubby. That's life.
But the fact of the matter is I am sitting at work acknowledging that I have gained at least 15 pounds since May. AT LEAST 15 POUNDS!!!! I didn't weigh this morning because I was in such disgust with how tight my clothes were and how much my baby Buddha (the nickname I gave my stomach pudge many years ago) was sticking out. I don't need anymore health issues, and probably according to my BMI I am probably morbidly obese. Not good. Anyways, with the inspiration of my dear sister this weekend I have decided to do start the 3-day diet today.
Supposedly with this quick diet you loose 10 pounds in 3 days (yeah i am sure all water weight and probably important muscles mass but 10 pounds is 10 pounds right? haha)... Since I didn't weigh it should be hard to tell if i do, but hopefully in three days I can weigh and say I am only 5 pounds from where I was in May..... Breakfast day 1 down.... 2 breakfasts, 3 lunches, and 3 dinners to go. Wish me luck!
But the fact of the matter is I am sitting at work acknowledging that I have gained at least 15 pounds since May. AT LEAST 15 POUNDS!!!! I didn't weigh this morning because I was in such disgust with how tight my clothes were and how much my baby Buddha (the nickname I gave my stomach pudge many years ago) was sticking out. I don't need anymore health issues, and probably according to my BMI I am probably morbidly obese. Not good. Anyways, with the inspiration of my dear sister this weekend I have decided to do start the 3-day diet today.
Supposedly with this quick diet you loose 10 pounds in 3 days (yeah i am sure all water weight and probably important muscles mass but 10 pounds is 10 pounds right? haha)... Since I didn't weigh it should be hard to tell if i do, but hopefully in three days I can weigh and say I am only 5 pounds from where I was in May..... Breakfast day 1 down.... 2 breakfasts, 3 lunches, and 3 dinners to go. Wish me luck!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Grey's Anatomy
One of my favorite shows throughout college was Grey's Anatomy. Something about each and everyone of Meredith's monoloues in the beginning and end always touch me in way or the other. Anyways, I am home preparing for a wonderful long weekend (woot woot for Labor day) and caught a really old episode of Grey's.... Here was the intro:
“You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.”
Life is based on faith. We can accept the fact we are adults and that things don't always work out the way we thought when we were a little kid but what if our fairy tale just changes as our life changes. We can modify our fairytale and always have hope and faith that there is something to look forward to!
I once was told that happiness happens when you have something to love, something to do, and something to look forward to. Are you happy?
“You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.”
Life is based on faith. We can accept the fact we are adults and that things don't always work out the way we thought when we were a little kid but what if our fairy tale just changes as our life changes. We can modify our fairytale and always have hope and faith that there is something to look forward to!
I once was told that happiness happens when you have something to love, something to do, and something to look forward to. Are you happy?
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Creativity Night
People watching
So one of my favorite past times is people watching. Whether it's starring at hideous clothing, ugly people, really pretty people, couples, kids, whatever.. I love to anaylze little details and put myself in their shoes. What are they doing? What are they talking about? Are they happy, sad, sick, ect? One of my favorite place to do my people watching is the car. Yesterday I was at a stoplight (after my unfortuanate visit with the laser demons) and was stopped at a stop light. I look to the car left of me and it was a middle aged man and woman in a large SUV. Both of them just starred straight forward. No talking. No emotion. Both just peered off into the distance. I couldn't help but feel sorry for them. I never sit in the car and just not talk (even if i am alone haha)... Was their marriage doomed, are they even married? Wonder if they just had a big fight? I dunno what their story was but for some reason it made me feel grateful. I have a wonderful life. While there are a couple things that have been major challenges for me I deal with day to day, generally I am very blessed. At that moment in the car, i was listening to good music, just got off the phone with my wonderful mother, and was headed home to relax. Thank you God for making me a happy person (most of the time ;o) ) and PS please bless the sad people in the car with a smile, happiness, or just a friendly thought.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Beauty is pain!
So woman spend hours weekly just being a woman. This includes blowing dry, curling or straightening, make up, tweezing, shaving, tanning, polishing, and dressing and it is just a normal part of our everyday lives. What do men do. Wake up, shower, put on clothes, and they are done. It's now popular for the average man to have the 5 o'clock shadow all the time.... Give me a break! The reason I am having these extreme "the world is not fair" attitude is I just got back from a laser hair removal treatment. It was my 1 year anniversary of laser treatment and I now dread treatment more than the dentist (at least they numb you at the dentist). I am not getting anything serious done. Just the lip and chin. I said to myself, "do it now and then your grandchildren wont have to pluck those chin hairs from my chinny chin chin one day (like we did with my granny)". Now sitting here with my lower face red and swollen, and the thoughts of each zap brings me chill bumps. When and if you ever consider getting it and you hear everyone tell you it's not that bad... Think again. It's like 1000 shards of fire shooting through your flesh in little zaps. How's is that for the things we do to be a beautiful woman (on top of everything else we already do)!
Right now I make a commitment that I will not date a man that does not shave, cut his hair, smell good, have style and actually cares. (well unless he totally steals my heart! haha) If I care, so should you! :o)
Right now I make a commitment that I will not date a man that does not shave, cut his hair, smell good, have style and actually cares. (well unless he totally steals my heart! haha) If I care, so should you! :o)
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